But if that's what it takes to praise You Jesus...

Life is full of ups and downs, peaks and valleys. What humans don't like about life...is the trials, pain, suffering, emptiness, hopelessness. Oh Lord! But if that's what it takes to praise You, to learn love, joy, peace, patience to love You, to realize how beautiful and glorious You are, to realize how much You love me, if that's what it takes to give up ownership over my life and surrender it all to You! Jesus... BRING THE RAIN! May God be glorified...May He be lifted higher!

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It's about time for an EPIC reflection...lol

Just came back from the EPIC conference. EPIC is a subministry of Cru that is targeted towards Asian Americans. Ate Em, one of the staff, invited our singles group from church.

She gave us a brochure and I just remember seeing words like "gospel" and "Christ-centered." I think I saw this too "Bringing the gospel of Jesus Christ to the world through Asian American students and faculty." I liked how they wrote out that the focus of the ministry was about the gospel and Jesus Christ.

1. Christ's Love.

The thing that stood out most to me were the people and how they showed Christ's love. When we got there someone came up to us and talked to us and asked us where we were from. It's weird, he just came to talk to us and I was like wow..usually people just mind their own business......? haha.

Another encounter was with Alan Tung. He gave a seminar about True Love called "Twu Wuv." I went afterwards to ask him questions. What got me was that he spent a lot of time talking to me and my friends. I was thinking to myself "man if I were him, I'd be so tired and sleepy. Plus, he probably got asked these relationship type of questions so many times already." I myself was tired, but he was still eager to answer our questions carefully and genuinely.

I also thought it was nice talking with Tony Wee. A noteworthy thing he said was that he didn't care about people starting EPIC Movements on campuses (something I'd expect from the EPIC staff), but that he cared about helping people make Christ known.

Darrin Mabuni was also nice to talk to. Something that stuck out to me was when he told us that even if we don't start an EPIC back in UMD, he was just glad that we came. He said that the important part was that we could join them at the conference and be blessed. Then he gave us hugs. I was like wow haha I felt so welcomed there. I know that this is just simple things and it happens a lot but it was different.

2. Praise time

During "How He Loves Us," Mike Kim, the praise leader, made us close our eyes and receive his next verses like they were God's words. In that moment, he was just singing God's promises to us about how He loves us and is our Father. After being reminded of those promises, I felt so relieved and I felt the pressure go away. I always feel like I have to prove something to God. I have to prove my actions that my faith is real. But just remembering how God loves us even while we were yet sinners...how comforting.

3. Accountability/Prayer Time

At the conference, I received a greater understanding of what accountability is and what it means to be brothers and sisters in Christ. After speaking to some brothers, I immediately thought to myself, "wow, we're being so open...so this is what an accountability group is..." After years and years of being a Christian, I never had brothers where we could share and be so open with each other about our struggles and just live life together. There would always be a thin layer of glass that guards our pride. There would be those things that in our lives that we think we can handle on our own and don't need to share it. But after the conference, I realized that I actually have a lot to share with my brothers and sisters, but I've just been so used to hiding them that I forgot I was hiding them.

4. Day of Outreach

Day three of the conference we went out to Livingston Mall to evangelize to strangers. Nathan was my partner and we were getting rejected all day. We only got to talk with 5 groups of people about God. We even got kicked out of Bath and Body Works. Cool...haha. It helped us depend on God as the strength and center of our lives more.

5. Likes

I liked how EPIC had an Asian American emphasis to it. The conferences I've been to are conferences where the people there just happen to be asian. However, EPIC was really an Asian American conference. As a result, I was able to see more clearly what kind of struggles Asian Americans face. In particular, I learned that many of them face identity crises (Asian vs American). The other major one is that many of them also face problems with their parents, how to love and live with them.

I also liked the structure of EPIC, in particular I thought it was interesting how EPIC partners with local churches. This diminishes problem of deciding wether to serve in a campus ministry or at church. With ministry and church partnership, students can serve their churches by serving in their campus ministries at school.

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OK, that's my reflection...whew...I thank God that I was able to go. I had a good time meeting new people and spending time with people from home. =]

Sanctification actually hurts haha

It's like waking up in the morning really really hungry, going out to buy sausage, bacon, eggs, and pancake mix, going home to cook, cooking the food while anticipating and imagining what the food tastes like, and then not eating it.........haha

Sanctification is the process of exchanging "food that perishes" for the "food that endures to eternal life" (John 6:27).

Truly, truly, I say to you, unless you eat the flesh of the Son of Man and drink his blood, you have no life in you. Whoever feeds on my flesh and drinks my blood has eternal life, and I will raise him up on the last day. For my flesh is true food, and my blood is true drink. Whoever feeds on my flesh and drinks my blood abides in me, and I in him. As the living Father sent me, and I live because of the Father, so whoever feeds on me, he also will live because of me. This is the bread that came down from heaven, not like the bread the fathers ate, and died. Whoever feeds on this bread will live forever. -Jesus Christ (John 6:53-58)

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Further explanation of where I'm coming from:

If sanctification is becoming more like Christ, becoming holy and blameless, submitting to God, and obeying God, then sanctification has a direct relationship with how much we love Jesus (John 14:15). Because we are still in the flesh, we forget how Jesus is more precious than things of this world (Romans 7:14-25). Being removed of our attachment to the world to cling onto Jesus can be a difficult process. But...

Indeed, I count everything as loss because of the surpassing worth of knowing Christ Jesus my Lord. For his sake I have suffered the loss of all things and count them as rubbish, in order that I may gain Christ -Apostle Paul (Philippians 3:8)

I went to DC Stop Modern Slavery last saturday and heard about social injustice (e.g. child slavery, child trafficking, modern slavery) going on in the world. Horrible stuffs going on, guys.

There are many causes and organizations responding to injustice.

One thing that I particularly liked at the event was hearing Tim Be Told's response song to injustice, Just Another Man:

There's nothing I can do

Father, hear our broken cries from a world so fallen!

Help us see that in one Man our hope will never die

And His people call Him Savior Jesus, Love Abounding

Give me strength to do all that I can

What a good way to respond to injustice, resting and clinging onto Jesus. Jesus, You are our Hope (1 Tim 1:1).

I get upset at God. I ask Him why He does these things. Why He let's these things happen. But I think at the heart of the issue that there is still Hope. I think that each one of us has to hold onto that and cling to that -Tim Ouyang

I don't entirely agree with how some social justice organizations respond to the injustice (see discussion below). But I do think that we as Christians, having been transformed Christ's love through the gospel, should put our hope in Jesus and show Christ's love through word and action to this world (Matt 25:45). =]

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Discussion on my disagreements with (some) social justice/civil rights organizations:

Note: This is just where I stand as of now...I am still learning, =]

Do you believe that humans deserve human rights?

  • I'm not sure. Because humans constantly disobey God to the point of being His enemy (Romans 5:10), I don't think humans deserve anything but God's just wrath (Psalm 5:5, Psalm 51:4, Romans 6:23).

Why do you cringe at the great focuses on social injustices like modern slavery?

  • I do think modern slavery should be emphasized, but I think that the reality of our slavery to sin should be more emphasized (John 8:34). Jesus Christ, the Son of the Living God, died so that we could be freed from being slaves to sin (Romans 6:6) to becoming slaves of God (Romans 6:18, 22). And the fruit we get leads to sanctification and it's end, eternal life (Romans 6:22)!
  • Sin was once our master, and we offended a holy and just God. BUT now through Jesus, God is now our master! WHAT?! We have been redeemed!

Whenever I feel hopeless, Jesus Christ is there.. That's how I've been experiencing Him..

What's there in life?

We can get good grades, then what?
get a good job, then what?
find a wife, move out, then what?
have kids, raise them, serve in church, then what?
die...? then what?
die respected, or die loved by many, then what?
be remembered for a few years, then what?

We reach an end and there's nothing here...

But Jesus is there. I don't know what to do, but I just know Jesus is there and that's enough.

Who is Jesus? The Bible talks about Jesus all the time. By him, through him, and for him, all things were created (Col 1:16). He heals people. He died on the cross to save us. He conquered death.

Jesus is good, perfect, He never fails. Having someone like that is enough. I don't know what He's gonna do, I don't know what I'm gonna do. I don't know where He's going, I don't know where I'm going. I don't know, I don't know. But I don't NEED to know.

All I need to know...is that Jesus is here.

Loving and Treasuring Jesus Christ,
Henrik

So I just came back from the camping trip with the KCM class of '12.

I want to blog about it and share my reflections...I have my own personal journal, so I usually write my reflections on there, but I'll write them here this time, just cuz I did this for the Freshmen beach trip.

Monday:
I woke up like 6:30 to 7, I had to take a taxi to CP because I didn't have a ride there and my ride to Assateague was Calvin, who was driving people from CP.

The taxi ride was interesting. It was a muslim guy. I wanted to evangelize to him, but I was still unsure. We talked about life and then eventually we got to the subject of death. The Holy Spirit seemed to be leading me to evangelize after all. I asked him what he thought about what happens after we die with the intention of talking about the gospel. He laughed like crazy and said that nothing happens. We only invented the idea of heaven so that it would be easier for us to let go when death happens. I didn't know what to say to that. I was having a hard time coming up with something to respond. I can only think in response that people say those kinds of things so that it would be easier for them to indulge in fleshly desires. If nothing happens after we die, then I can do whatever I want now. I decided to just get his name and pray for him by name. His name is Sam, he's old, I pray for his salvation.

I got to commons and Calvin wasn't there so I chilled at their place. James Park let me in and we just ate cereal and talked about how to get there and stuff. We did some "recon" haha, basically did research on our destination. Calvin eventually came and we went to commons to pick up other things. Antwoine rode with us too. Something I liked about the ride was that every single person was conscious about the kind of music that we were listening to. It's encouraging to see the Holy Spirit open their eyes to be aware of things like that.

We were distracted by the music and ended up going off course, so we got to the meeting place late. Then we went ahead, checked in, then started setting up tents.

I felt like we were in a different world. A world of sand with wind. There was no sign of civilization in sight except the toilet and the showers. The toilet was just a toilet seat with a hole in the ground with a bottomless pit. No soap, Hand sanitizer. The shower was a cold shower and a drain, typical for beaches.

We sent up our tents and the tents looked like they were going to be blown away. Then we went to eat, I ate two sandwiches with ham and mustard and sunchips. Then we went off to the beach.

First we were just playing with the waves, then some of the guys decided to actually go in the water, so we did, when we got there the girls went to change, we played in the water for a while, then the girls came very very late...haha. By that time, the guys were almost done playing with the waves. I played with Eric I think with his board. He was teaching me how glide or hydroplane over the waves. Eric pointed me to the cross by letting me have fun with his board, when he could have just used it by himself and had all the fun. I treasure this moment with Eric because it is a nice summary of our relationship. When I was a freshmen in college, Eric spent time with me, taking care of me and teaching me things, as we were both electrical engineering majors. Sorry for getting a lil touchy, haha moving on...

So Calvin, James, and I took a shower after I think. Calvin shared his body soap and shampoo with us, that was cool.

After that we decided to eat dinner. We couldn't light the fire because of the wind, so we initially used towels to block the wind. It didn't work so we used tarp? (the top part of a tent) and had people line up to block the wind. We used two tarps. It was funny because the camp next to us was just playing frisbee and chillin, while we were putting in a group effort just to make food.

Our lighter didn't seem to work, so we had to borrow from the camp next to us. Angel and Mikey seemed to play a big role in starting the fire since they were the ones blowing on the charcoal to make them burn. We had a lot to cook, so we had to hold the tarp for a while. I was holding the tarp next to Joyce. Joyce and I talked about our semesters...I was encouraged to hear how Joyce has been learning a lot about relationships this past semester.

Christine saw that I was holding the tarp for a while, she offered to take my place, then I was free. It reminds me of the gospel how Jesus took our place and bore God's wrath, that we may be free and forgiven. I was encouraged by everyone cooperating. No one was complaining and we were all working together. Some people couldn't eat because they're hands were occupied. Suzie fed some of us. Albert and I think Asaph or Caleb would take the burgers and make them for everyone. That was cool. Also, Mikey and Eric brought galbi, even though they were not supposed to. How cool. There was so much grace through service. Praise God.

After eating, we moved onto the campfire, it slowly got dark. Albert and I had Christina's song book and we were just going through it playing guitar and singing songs. It was nice. Angel would sing along too, as well as other people around the fire. I think this was one of my favorite memories, singing at the beach, cool cozy sand underneath our feet, nice cooling breeze, pitch dark, hints of star and lightning with no thunder, next to a warm camp fire, singing songs of praise to God, with my brothers and sisters in Christ.

Then some went to sleep, others had some deep conversations. I had a nice talk with Calvin, my brother from freshmen year. We were talking about little things, but then moved on to talk about his church and how people are leaving his church. He shared about the love that his EM or college pastor had for his church, and about his ideas about leaving the church. It was a nice talk. We went to the tent, then Caleb, Asaph, and Albert followed and we all went to sleep.

Next day, Tuesday, a lot of people went to see the sunrise at 5AM, unfortunately, I slept through it. I woke up and brushed my teeth, then I went to go eat muffins. Everyone decided to go hiking, except Antwoine who went by the beach to do his QTs I suppose.

As we were hiking, we walked by people with journals and stuff. They seemed to be doing research. I think they were also from UMCP.

After hiking we all decided to go to the beach. However, Suzie locked herself out of her car by leaving the keys in her car. Calvin and I decided to show some love and share in trouble by waiting with Suzie. Angel came by and called Triple A and that was that. It was encouraging to see people willing to share Suzie's burden by staying with her while they were trying to figure out how to get the keys out. Since we were already at the parking lot, I decided to drop something off in Calvin's car, but instead I did my QTs and I read Philippians 4:14, "Yet it was kind of you to share my trouble." I was unsure about whether or not to leave Suzie. She already had a lot of people waiting with her, but through this verse, I believe that God was telling me to wait with Suzie, so I did. Antwoine popped up later out of nowhere with his Bible and waited with us. It was random haha.

After we found out that Triple A was on it's way, we all decided to go back to the beach. I just dug up holes with Calvin, Mikey, and Albert. We eventually buried Mikey in one of the holes and then took pictures. After we did 4 man push ups. The girls wanted to do it too and we challenged them. We won, we did 6 man push ups too.

Hmm, after that we ate ramyun. We had to hold the tarp again too. I held it for a while. I have to admit that I was getting kinda disappointed because no one was offering to exchange places with me. But then I thought again that if I was among the people who weren't doing anything, I would have done the same thing to the people holding the tarp. I also remembered how Jesus sacrificed Himself for us. Why do I act like things are unfair if I am holding this tarp and others are just chillin? I am already redeemed, we all were, it's over. We have been blessed beyond measure, so why complain?

Afterwards I went to play frisbee with Caleb and Albert. Eventually Young and Calvin joined. We weren't the best at throwing frisbees, the frisbee would go in all kinds of directions. But no one complained. I thought that was cool. It reminded me of the gospel how Jesus sacrificed Himself for us because of our inadequacies.

The girls wanted to go to the beach, so the boys decided to follow, but some were so lazy that some of us stayed halfway and just collapsed on the sand. It was beautiful, but then it was about to rain, so we had to run and put tarp over our tent. Then it was raining hard. Everyone was at their car, except Asaph, Caleb, Albert, and I. Albert and Caleb went out in the rain to make sure that all of our stuff were secure from the rain. They wouldn't come into our tent because they were dirty from the rain. I thought that was nice and thoughtful. I offered my towel to Albert and Caleb to help them dry off and get cleaned.

Afterwards the sun came out, then we all just loafed around until dinner. I went to shower. I forgot the name of the place that we were eating. It was something something related to ribs. A lot of us got a quarter dark chicken with 4 ribs. It was very expensive.

We then went to Ocean City to get ice cream. It was nice, we saw a sand castle of Jesus and words that said "HAVE FAITH." There were gospel tracts there too in a water jug. I thought it was cool and encouraging to see people using their gifts to share the gospel. Gifts that I didn't think could be used directly to share the gospel I guess.

Caleb bought deep fried oreos, like 6 of them, with the intention of sharing it with people. It was thoughtful of him to buy oreos to share with the class (Christ's love again). I was encouraged to do the same, however not many wanted to accept our gifts of love haha. We both saved them for our ice cream. I got banana ice cream dipped in chocolate. The chocolate solidified on my ice cream, it was good.

Then we got back to the campsite and started our campfires again. We had apples, corn, and potatoes. I don't know who bought them, maybe Cheryl? But Cheryl, Angel, and I think Lina were preparing the potatoes and corn. How nice (Christ's love again), I decided to help them too. I sat with Joyce and Caleb after. The corn was really good. Eric then got the guitar and they were singing songs. Albert, Asaph, and Linda, and many others sat at another table and started talking about relationships. Mikey wanted them to bring the conversation to the campfire but they were too busy in their conversations, so the people at the campfire decided to talk a little about relationships. The boys wanted girls to drop hints back when boys were dropping hints that they liked the girls. The girls were saying that guys should just initiate regardless of what hints the girls drop back. Then the guys were saying they didn't want to because they didn't want it to get awkward. Caleb had nice insight and said that it was basically girls and guys just wanting more from the other party. He also clarified the boys position by saying that girls would naturally respond to boys hints if the girl liked or disliked the boy.

After that, Caleb, Lina, Joyce, and I started singing songs again from Christina's songbook. Albert joined in after. There was a time when we were just singing songs and not singing seriously. Caleb said, "If were not gonna sing it seriously, we might as well not sing it." He wasn't saying it to rebuke us I think, but he was just saying it casually as if to say, "let's move onto another song", but I took it like a conviction. I think we should sing seriously in worship when we singing praises to God.

Everyone went to sleep and it was just Lina and I singing songs. I felt kinda bad because we were singing and everyone was trying to sleep. Lina and I went to brush our teeth. When we came back, we saw that our campsite was surrounded by horses. I could barely see without my glasses so I could only see blurry figures of horses. Caleb was awake though and was using a pan to scare the horses away. Lina was freaking out haha and we decided to take a different route. I was really scared too because we were literally surrounded. The check in place said that we should be bus lengths away from horses, and I wasn't for some of the horses. Caleb was then going to sleep. He also disappeared, leaving me alone to defend the site. There were horses attacking the girls tent, so I had to scare them off using Eric's board. But then Caleb came and we scared them off together.

A large number of people were sleeping in their cars. Our tent was filled with bugs, so Calvin, Asaph, and Albert didn't sleep in our tent. Caleb and I were trying to sleep in the cars too, but Caleb thought it was too uncomfortable. I was supposed to sleep in Calvins car, but it didn't seem like a good idea either. So we decided to sleep in the tent, us two.

We got into the tent and talked a little about the wind. We were talking about how we were complaining about it earlier, but it was actually a good thing because without it, there were a lot of bugs biting us, and also ait became really hot and humid. Caleb said that it was God's way of humbling us. We also talked about worship and what it does. We have friends who say that it allows God to work in the atmosphere of where worship occurs. I asked for Caleb's opinion, and he asked for Scriptural texts, but I couldn't provide any.

The next day we took showers. Angel was frying potatoes and we just sat around and packed up. We then left and we ate at sonic. I caught up with Asaph there and saw how he was doing with his career and with church.

Then I rode with Antwoine and Calvin home. Antwoine was talking about the trip how it didn't go exactly the way he intended it. I noticed how Calvin was really compassionate and pointed out where Antwoine was wrong lovingly. It was an encouragement and I realized that I can be legalistic and dogmatic, instead of encouraging and loving when people expressed frustrations with me.

I got home and that's it...haha

It was a nice trip, I learned a lot. I thank God for you KCM Class of 2012!

At this time of year, there are a lot of graduations, graduation parties, and senior banquets. That means a lot of pictures. Group pictures, and pictures of people taking pictures with other people.

I don't think I'm a good person to take pictures with. For example, I can't smile on command. There are other reasons...

So...

Who would go through the trouble of taking a solo pic with me? I don't smile. I don't add anything especially nice to people that I take pictures with. I'm lame.

But...

Still my brothers and sisters in Christ want to take pictures with me. Why why why?

I think it's because of Christ's love in them.

This is Christ's love...

"but God shows his love for us in that while we were still sinners, Christ died for us."
-Romans 5:8

So...

While I was a sinner and enemy of God, while I was exalting myself above God, while I was finding satisfaction in things other than God, while I was giving praise to things other than God, while I was making God sad and angry, while I was doing things that deserved and earned God's wrath...

God sent His only begotten Son, Jesus Christ, the perfect and beautiful Son of God, to die for me and bear God's wrath in my place, so that I can have a personal relationship with God.

Why why why why why?

God is good. He is love.

Thank you brothers and sisters for giving me greater understandings of this truth by your loving actions. I hope I can love you all as well with Christ's love.

I really like this, I was like "woah" when I read the last part haha.

Donald Miller was basically criticizing people for studying theology too much. He said that it gave rise to "divisions in evangelicalism." He has a point to consider, but theology is still important.

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Taken from The Gospel Coalition blog:

This is a broad discussion, and I could say much more, but I will suggest just one other major response to Miller: Scholarship, or theology, or whatever you want to label it, is not the enemy of lived Christianity. Theology, when done biblically, gives life. It is eminently practical. Faithful Christian scholars and theologians necessarily engage in an intensely practical task: teaching ideas that will shape the life of the student and the lives of those the student will affect. I issue a friendly challenge to Miller: Find me some teaching that produces “just thought, not action.” Isn’t Miller doing a form of teaching in his post that is intended to stimulate thought—and isn’t this thought intended to provoke action?

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"You see, knowing theology is not just a mental game where you try and collect random bits of information to impress your friends at dinner parties. Knowing your theology, and knowing this truth in particular, will impact on all areas of your life. Man’s chief and highest end is to glorify God, and fully to enjoy him for ever."

-Paul Wicking

http://thegospelcoalition.org/blogs/tgc/2011/04/26/the-welcome-rise-of-the-pastor-theologian-a-friendly-response-to-donald-miller/